It all first started when as a really young child, I was allowed to watch the same shows as grown ups. I watched men frisking women up their skirts, raping them, adults making out. I actually thought it was nice to get “raped” cause it looked so sexy on tv. Those images never really leave … Continue reading I used to watch Porn
Today was my birthday. I woke up without the usual heaviness this time of the year. No lies that said I didn’t matter, no checks on Facebook to see how many wishes I got, no wondering if I would get any surprises, cakes or presents and who would remember. Nothing of that, AT ALL 😱. … Continue reading 34, Delivered From Birthday Depression
Today some friends commented that they would have thought that I would love Aletheia to be in a school that taught about God and how awesome he was. A school that taught her how to pray before having her meals etc. Which got me thinking - if a "Christian" school and nursery can give you … Continue reading The Odyssey of God and Schools
This comes a little premature but it’s been stuck in my throat for the past few months as I’ve known that I know that I know, that we were moving back to Singapore, but I didn’t know exactly when and exactly how and exactly if it would really really happen. You see, in January this … Continue reading 5 Years in NYC and 2 kids later
On Friday when I was out and about in a department store, a sales assistant came up to me and asked about Zoe. She followed up with asking me if she was okay in the carrier like that. I smiled and replied yes she’s okay. I didn’t think much about it till she asked me … Continue reading The Mom Trap – Offense and Condemnation
It’s day 3 and my milk has still not come in and I’m just starting to get full. When I pump I get only a few drops on my nipples and I remember with Aletheia, I had to work very very hard to breastfeed her as well. In the first week, I cried when I … Continue reading New Mom Battles and the Lying Voices
Heads and Hands Down Aletheia (Truth) And Zoe(Life) come by Grace. Today we had a regular visit to the doctors at 31 weeks and to my very pleasant surprise, Zoe was engaged and head down! What I had thought was her head on the right side of my belly was actually her butt! The feeling … Continue reading The Disappointing C section that gave me Truth and Life.
10 years ago, we found out that we were pregnant. Mark was not even 21 and I had just turned 23. I was a financial advisor and he was finishing up his national service. We were NOT married. It was probably March or April that we found out. We were happy and told our parents … Continue reading Pregnant and Unmarried
I am in tears recalling the old me. God has set me free from so many bondages in my life I don’t even know where to start. I’ve been enjoying a good nights sleep and just bursting with joy every morning because of the good rest and energy that I have from sleeping early. Today … Continue reading Thinking of What I Was
FINDING OUT 41 days since my last period, I was feeling mild cramps and having swollen nipples and kept wondering where my period was. You see, I had stopped thinking I was pregnant and stopped testing 5 days before my scheduled periods because it had been 12 months of insanity. ( Doing the same thing … Continue reading God is Faithful, We Are Pregnant!