On Friday when I was out and about in a department store, a sales assistant came up to me and asked about Zoe. She followed up with asking me if she was okay in the carrier like that. I smiled and replied yes she’s okay. I didn’t think much about it till she asked me … Continue reading The Mom Trap – Offense and Condemnation
10 years ago, we found out that we were pregnant. Mark was not even 21 and I had just turned 23. I was a financial advisor and he was finishing up his national service. We were NOT married. It was probably March or April that we found out. We were happy and told our parents … Continue reading Pregnant and Unmarried
FINDING OUT 41 days since my last period, I was feeling mild cramps and having swollen nipples and kept wondering where my period was. You see, I had stopped thinking I was pregnant and stopped testing 5 days before my scheduled periods because it had been 12 months of insanity. ( Doing the same thing … Continue reading God is Faithful, We Are Pregnant!
Last night I had a flashback and recalled how in primary school I was so insecure and had written in my journals that I had no one to go to recess with me... and every-time it was Recess time I felt so insecure. We had gone away and come back from Israel and having to … Continue reading Honestly, I am Insecure.
MOST couples want kids, and if they are married and haven’t had their first - chances are they actually might be trying but don’t want to tell you. If they have 1 kid but don’t have a 2nd kid... chances are they do want another kid - so you don’t have to keep asking them … Continue reading WaitingFertility, Not Infertility❤️
I had recently fallen into a hole of feeling like a flake for succumbing into thinking about quitting BJJ. I cried so much because it felt like an intense and fun yet abusive boyfriend that I loved but had to breakup with because as much as I liked it, things just weren’t working out. And … Continue reading When Something Good Becomes Something Bad
Today I had this thought - “ How WRECKED would we be if we really knew what we have been saved from?” “What would the word SALVATION mean to us and what joy would we have to know that we are saved?” I imagined near-death experiences. Getting almost knocked down by a car and “someone” … Continue reading Near-Death Experience
New Year's Eve 2009I still remember my first cigarette. My then bi-sexual ex-convict boyfriend had broken up with me because I was a virgin and did not want to sleep with him. I was heartbroken and devastated. We had no heart connection then, but I only understand that now. ( More on that next time). I … Continue reading How I Quit Smoking After 9 Years
Why do you say you cannot, when I say that you can? Don't you know whose you are, don't you know I am the great I AM?- God to Me, 17 July 2017I was just reflecting on all the lies I had built my life upon up till the moment I met God, Jesus and … Continue reading My Mess, My MESSage.
God is doing something. From having NO inspiration to paint for the past 8 months, after reading @cagelessbirds briefly, I had the urge to paint. I quickly tore the wrapper of a new canvas and brought all my paint out for the first time in a long time, and for the first time in this … Continue reading Cageless Bird – Creatively Free
I've been in Singapore for almost 6 weeks,and haven't seen my husband for that long.This is the longest we've ever been apart, and for a daddy to not see his 2 year old daughter for that long hasn't been easy.But I know I can trust you.Back when we first got asked if we wanted to … Continue reading But I know I can Trust You
I am so thankful that by Gods grace, I have a wonderful and loving husband today. However, there were many years that I battled and questioned and lost my purity because I did not understand why sex out of marriage would hurt me. I only saw it as one more law in the bible that I … Continue reading The truth about Sex and Marriage
I used to be a Lesbian.There, I said it. For a year or so, I was in a relationship with a girl, at 16.She was much older and looked just like a boy. Everyone in her workplace thought she was a boy. Her father wished he had a son, and she didn’t want to disappoint. … Continue reading I Used To Be a Lesbian.
I've got to admit, I felt disappointed that I did not have a natural birth. I had confessed I had believed I had declared and decreed and prayed that she would turn and not be breeched, that I would have no complications in this pregnancy, that it would be pain free and fast, that my … Continue reading Making Sense Of It All
God thank you for 6 years of amazing marriage. Thank you for Mark- the most loving and giving man I've ever known. When I think back to the relationships I had before, I am truly amazed at how good your gift is. I was told I would not make a good wife, that I was selfish and … Continue reading Reminiscing our Wedding – We turn 6 !
I was strolling down my facebook history's memory lane when it took me to 2009. I was reading the posts and for moment there I was wondering - WHO posted this because I didn't even remember writing that. It's like THAT IS SO NOT ME, I can't imagine myself writing something like that right now … Continue reading Blast To The Past And Grateful.
Upon coming to New York, I didn’t tell many but I was scared. My heart was filled with anxiousness. I worried about not having enough, high rents and taxes. I kept comparing our living situation now to back home in Singapore. Somewhere in my heart, didn’t understand the move. Why move from 3 bedrooms to … Continue reading BECAUSE HE FIRST loved us
I stopped going to church for good when I was 19. I sought to know the supernatural/ believed there was more to life and the future and I've been to palm readers, tarot card reading, 8 birth date Chinese reading, crystal stone elements readings before. Around that time, I had a bad breakup and started … Continue reading What Jesus Did To Me
Thurday, the day that we posted that we might not be able to launch the April collection, was a very hard day for us.My dad was breathing so heavily and with so much effort and the doctors said that he was only breathing through a One MM hole because his vocal chords had collapsed. They … Continue reading My Earthly and Heavenly Dad