God gave us children to open the eyes of our hearts to understand how and why He would give up so much to have us. That love. Why we would go through all the physical “pain” or carrying and growing and delivering our children all to go through many years more of taking care of … Continue reading Parenthood and the Kingdom of God
I have always thought of myself as a creative, a jewelry designer, an artist, but never as a singer or songwriter. I would not have imagined that one day, God would give me what I call a spirit of "thick-skin" / boldness 😂 to just publish this on Spotify. In fact, the very irony is … Continue reading His Kind Of Love – On Spotify
I remember the days where I would measure the success of my day by how much I got done. Was I productive ? How many Statement necklaces did I make today? I measured my productiveness and whether the day was a “good” day when I felt accomplished. Obviously when Aletheia was born, you could have … Continue reading Finally a Human BEing ? // my journey from doing to being ❤️ //
On Friday when I was out and about in a department store, a sales assistant came up to me and asked about Zoe. She followed up with asking me if she was okay in the carrier like that. I smiled and replied yes she’s okay. I didn’t think much about it till she asked me … Continue reading The Mom Trap – Offense and Condemnation
10 years ago, we found out that we were pregnant. Mark was not even 21 and I had just turned 23. I was a financial advisor and he was finishing up his national service. We were NOT married. It was probably March or April that we found out. We were happy and told our parents … Continue reading Pregnant and Unmarried
FINDING OUT 41 days since my last period, I was feeling mild cramps and having swollen nipples and kept wondering where my period was. You see, I had stopped thinking I was pregnant and stopped testing 5 days before my scheduled periods because it had been 12 months of insanity. ( Doing the same thing … Continue reading God is Faithful, We Are Pregnant!
Today I was just thinking about how I felt the Holy Spirit tell me that the reason why I was getting so stressed up all the time around 830pm to the point where I would get all tensed and edgy and need to put stress away oil to calm down is because of the law … Continue reading The Laws We Create
Last night I had a flashback and recalled how in primary school I was so insecure and had written in my journals that I had no one to go to recess with me... and every-time it was Recess time I felt so insecure. We had gone away and come back from Israel and having to … Continue reading Honestly, I am Insecure.
Today I had this thought - “ How WRECKED would we be if we really knew what we have been saved from?” “What would the word SALVATION mean to us and what joy would we have to know that we are saved?” I imagined near-death experiences. Getting almost knocked down by a car and “someone” … Continue reading Near-Death Experience
Today was one of those days where I didn't start my day right. I wasn't guarding my heart and thoughts and did not spend time hearing God in the morning and I had let one thoughts get to me.I was hearing things in my head like the following...You are not doing enough.You are not a … Continue reading You Are A Bad Mom
Tonight we were coming back fromAlstead Farms and it was 9pm Saturday night. Aletheia had fallen asleep in the car and she is heavy. I asked Mark if he would be able to get a parking lot by the road if possible and he said it was highly unlikely as it was saturday night.I had … Continue reading A Little Parking Miracle
New Year's Eve 2009I still remember my first cigarette. My then bi-sexual ex-convict boyfriend had broken up with me because I was a virgin and did not want to sleep with him. I was heartbroken and devastated. We had no heart connection then, but I only understand that now. ( More on that next time). I … Continue reading How I Quit Smoking After 9 Years
Recently a friend was saying how she would never want to get on Instagram or become a blogger because she didn't want to get all wrapped up by how many likes she got and get obsessed with social media like how a lot of people are today. Valid, very valid.It came from a heart that was … Continue reading What am I Saying and WHY?
Why do you say you cannot, when I say that you can? Don't you know whose you are, don't you know I am the great I AM?- God to Me, 17 July 2017I was just reflecting on all the lies I had built my life upon up till the moment I met God, Jesus and … Continue reading My Mess, My MESSage.
God is doing something. From having NO inspiration to paint for the past 8 months, after reading @cagelessbirds briefly, I had the urge to paint. I quickly tore the wrapper of a new canvas and brought all my paint out for the first time in a long time, and for the first time in this … Continue reading Cageless Bird – Creatively Free
The Perfect Family - we have it together at all times, and our house looks like this perpetually - NOT. Today I had an amazing day because I chose to let the unfolded clothes remain on the floor, leave Aletheia's toys all over the place as they were, let the dishes remain in the sink, and … Continue reading Living In The Mess
Moms who have only met me recently would think that I've always been skinny. But the truth is that I had put on so much weight when I was pregnant. I put on 18kg and even when Aletheia turned 1, I still had 10 kg to go! I gave up and bought jeans that were … Continue reading A Life Transformed. ( Body-wise)
Exercise has been for me, similar to the presence of God in the way that once I've tasted its goodness, once I've truly encountered his presence and that love and "high", there really is no forcing me to exercise or to pray - because I know that I don't feel good without it, and I … Continue reading Exercise And The Presence of God
I've been in Singapore for almost 6 weeks,and haven't seen my husband for that long.This is the longest we've ever been apart, and for a daddy to not see his 2 year old daughter for that long hasn't been easy.But I know I can trust you.Back when we first got asked if we wanted to … Continue reading But I know I can Trust You
// The Beauty of Jealousy //Today as I read Joel 2:18 " then the lord was jealous for his land and took pity in his people " , and the word JEALOUS captured me.The past week I realized I was getting what I thought was jealous, that since he came back Aletheia wanted only daddy … Continue reading The Beauty of Jealousy
As I was talking about baby names to a friend I was telling her how I love that when people ask me what Aletheia means, I could tell them the following - That I was watching Joseph Prince and the word Aletheia and its meaning flashed on the screen. Aletheia was the greek word for … Continue reading Trust His Heart
I am so thankful that by Gods grace, I have a wonderful and loving husband today. However, there were many years that I battled and questioned and lost my purity because I did not understand why sex out of marriage would hurt me. I only saw it as one more law in the bible that I … Continue reading The truth about Sex and Marriage
As I was in the shower meditating on what I had just read in Elizabeth Gilbert's book on creativity, "big magic", I was concurrently thinking about how it was "time" for baby number 2.Yet, the recent news of a friend's friend's second child being born wth Down syndrome (after their first child being born a … Continue reading You, a work of art.
I think that so honestly, the one thing that prevents me from being creative is fear. Fear that what I create will not turn out nice. Fear that nobody will buy what I make. Fear that what I like and love isn’t commercial enough, and that it wouldn’t sell. In part, this fear seems to … Continue reading Fear and Creativity
Perfect love casts out all fear.What if , you walked around, ran around, met with strangers, knowing that your dad had your back ALWAYS , like you ACTUALLY BELIEVED he was right there beside you and behind you, watching over you?Upon coming back to Singapore, and seeing how carefree and friendly Aletheia is with strangers … Continue reading The Magic Of Faith and Toddler Fears
To be so very honest, I have been quite nervous about the Hadasity workshops because I always thought that I did not have it in me to teach. My immediate response to anyone who asked me in the past, why don't I expand - was that I couldn't teach what I did. Even Talitha has … Continue reading Hadasity Workshops and the Teaching Heart
After having spent one week with family in singapore - and having all the attention and being fussed over and picked up and Carried at every scream or whimper, I now sit all alone with Aletheia in our Phuket hotel room feeling frustrated, because it seems, she has somewhat been infected with what I hope … Continue reading Discipline and the Heart of "No"
Over the week as I realized Aletheia's temper tantrums were growing wild, I made a decision to have an action plan. I would put her in the crib (that she doesn't sleep in ) for a 1 minute "time out" in the room alone the next time she threw a fit.As I stood outside the … Continue reading A Toddler’s Time Out and A Parent’s Sacrifice
Let go and let his supply flowToday as I was listening to Pastor Prince's sermon , "let go and let his supply flow", I recalled all the times that I had worried and stressed out and how when I committed it all to God, his Grace could be released in that area.Come to think of … Continue reading How my breastfeeding went from zero to hero
I used to be a Lesbian.There, I said it. For a year or so, I was in a relationship with a girl, at 16.She was much older and looked just like a boy. Everyone in her workplace thought she was a boy. Her father wished he had a son, and she didn’t want to disappoint. … Continue reading I Used To Be a Lesbian.
I've got to admit, I felt disappointed that I did not have a natural birth. I had confessed I had believed I had declared and decreed and prayed that she would turn and not be breeched, that I would have no complications in this pregnancy, that it would be pain free and fast, that my … Continue reading Making Sense Of It All
I was strolling down my facebook history's memory lane when it took me to 2009. I was reading the posts and for moment there I was wondering - WHO posted this because I didn't even remember writing that. It's like THAT IS SO NOT ME, I can't imagine myself writing something like that right now … Continue reading Blast To The Past And Grateful.
We are ALL children of God. We ALL have been saved. Yes I say this because I now know that me not acknowledging who gave birth to me - my father – makes him no less of my father. Me not acknowledging or being unaware of who my dad is, makes me no less his … Continue reading We Are All His Children
Upon coming to New York, I didn’t tell many but I was scared. My heart was filled with anxiousness. I worried about not having enough, high rents and taxes. I kept comparing our living situation now to back home in Singapore. Somewhere in my heart, didn’t understand the move. Why move from 3 bedrooms to … Continue reading BECAUSE HE FIRST loved us
I know I'm probably either going to get slammed or gently corrected by some in the Church family, or celebrated by yoga-fans, but I just attended my first yoga class today and here are some of my thoughts.....it was really relaxing and felt like a good workout too. Somewhat like, a more complicated version of … Continue reading Christianity and Yoga – Redeeming Glory in the beneficial & constructive movement of our bodies God created
I stopped going to church for good when I was 19. I sought to know the supernatural/ believed there was more to life and the future and I've been to palm readers, tarot card reading, 8 birth date Chinese reading, crystal stone elements readings before. Around that time, I had a bad breakup and started … Continue reading What Jesus Did To Me
The following poem was read out during the ibethel sermon by Kris Vallaton on Mother's Day. We listened to it and it so resonated in our hearts that my dear sister Talitha, transcribed the whole poem that was read. The author's name is Christina Moss, THANK YOU for such a beautiful poem.Happy Mother's Day :)============================================ … Continue reading I am A Woman
Thurday, the day that we posted that we might not be able to launch the April collection, was a very hard day for us.My dad was breathing so heavily and with so much effort and the doctors said that he was only breathing through a One MM hole because his vocal chords had collapsed. They … Continue reading My Earthly and Heavenly Dad