Today I woke up to a message from a Hadasity Darling who said ” I am totally floored by all the beauty you’re creating, babe….” and I surprised myself when the immediate words that came out of my heart were from a song that I did not know had been memorized and buried deep in my heart for the last 20 years.
“To God Be The Glory! Great things he has done! So loved he the world that he gave us his son!” ! I grew up in MGS singing this song every week and it was our school’s motto. It never meant anything to me till now.
The song rang in my heart the entire day and I did not realize although I never cared for the song all those years, that I had somehow memorized it. It made me realize that the seeds sown in those years were seeds buried and harvested even if years later.
For the last 10 years, every single Hadasity collection made me excited and nervous at the same time. I would check the sales at launch time incessantly as if ever sale and my identity was tied into what pieces sold. If they sold, I was validated. If they did not, I was disappointed and felt rejected.
As I prayed this afternoon and did a heart check, I told God that I knew that it was all for his glory. That it didn’t matter how many followers or likes that I got on my posts and even if nothing sold it would not define me because everything I do now is for his kingdom and his glory. It is His Voice and His Story. He saved my life and made me a new creation in Christ Jesus in every way.
Yesterday was also my wedding anniversary and for the first time in 12 years, I did not do a public announcement or have a celebration but i was the happiest and most thankful that I have ever been. It is not about fancy dinners or gifts but the fact that after 12 years I am still married because Jesus is in the centre of it all. Because God saved us both, that we can love each other still. Every good gift comes from above.
I feel so FREE. FREE from the fear of men because of the FEAR OF GOD. If I died and rose with Christ Jesus and he lives in me right now, what do I have to fear? If he accepted me and chose me, who can reject me? If I have the mind of Christ and have everything IN CHRIST, all wisdom and gifts of the spirit because of the Holy spirit that lives in me, what do I lack and need to gain from the world? If I am been made a daughter and have received the spirit of sonship which I can cry ABBA FATHER, then what can the world offer me that I don’t already have in Christ Jesus? In Jesus, I have everything.
With my voices and keys, TO GOD BE THE GLORY.