Today I finally recognized a pattern in Aletheia’s behavior. I found it very strange that on weekends and whenever daddy was around, that she would slowly start rejecting me. We were fine this morning but by afternoon she started throwing the crayon on the floor that I had picked up for her, and refusing my … Continue reading I Don’t Want You, Because I Want You.
Today I had this thought - “ How WRECKED would we be if we really knew what we have been saved from?” “What would the word SALVATION mean to us and what joy would we have to know that we are saved?” I imagined near-death experiences. Getting almost knocked down by a car and “someone” … Continue reading Near-Death Experience
Today I had the thought of looking for this exact photo of myself in a swimsuit in this picture - because I clearly remembered I felt like my skin was spilling out everywhere. I wasn’t embarrassed, but I was not feeling amazing. I was searching for it through my photo cloud and it shocked me … Continue reading When Everything Work(s)-Out
Today was one of those days where I didn't start my day right. I wasn't guarding my heart and thoughts and did not spend time hearing God in the morning and I had let one thoughts get to me.I was hearing things in my head like the following...You are not doing enough.You are not a … Continue reading You Are A Bad Mom
Tonight we were coming back fromAlstead Farms and it was 9pm Saturday night. Aletheia had fallen asleep in the car and she is heavy. I asked Mark if he would be able to get a parking lot by the road if possible and he said it was highly unlikely as it was saturday night.I had … Continue reading A Little Parking Miracle
New Year's Eve 2009I still remember my first cigarette. My then bi-sexual ex-convict boyfriend had broken up with me because I was a virgin and did not want to sleep with him. I was heartbroken and devastated. We had no heart connection then, but I only understand that now. ( More on that next time). I … Continue reading How I Quit Smoking After 9 Years