Having moved to NY one year ago and not really knowing anyone, there were really times I felt so lonely and questioned why we left our family and all our close friends back in Singapore. I complained to Mark that I wasn’t close to anyone and yet I didn’t want to make an effort to make friends with anyone! I already had so many close friends in a Singapore and my heart was so full I just wasn’t sure if I could add on more numbers to the people that would matter to me. I also didn’t want to make the effort because I knew that I would want to keep in touch with every single person that I had ever been close to ( which was the case in Singapore) which made me very happy but also very stressed as I tried desperately to fit all my catchup sessions in what little time I had. I’ve since learned that it’s okay to let go – in the sense that I didn’t have to Try so hard to keep in touch with everyone- they were in my heart and would always be no matter how long we had not seen or spoken to each other – it would be just like yesterday.
I prayed to God in desperation one day – I wrote a simple and very honest prayer on the 24th of August.
I prayed for the desire to go out and make friends and to stop complaining and feeling down but to actually have the desire to meet new people.
That very weekend I found myself perked up and excited to go out. We had invites for a birthday party and we didn’t know the couple well but I just said okay let’s go! We also met another couple through a friend that just moved to town and i found my heart in a very different space and light that day – I actually was interested in making new friends with these people!
Though we met some people we still weren’t that close so when it came to planning for Aletheia, I really didn’t expect any gifts from anyone. I didn’t expect our friends and family from Singapore to send presents over. I didn’t expect any gifts from anyone we knew here. I didn’t expect a baby shower. Sometime in October, I started buying what we needed to get ready for our baby because I just wanted to be ready ahead of time.
So, when we started receiving presents for Aletheia, it was truly touching and overwhelming. When our connect group leader said she was going to definitely organize a baby shower for us and asked us if we had a gift registry, we had already bought what we needed.
Somewhere along the way, God super accelerated all my friendships and I am so truly grateful to have close friends that came for the baby shower and put in so much effort to make the day special for me.
Even writing this is so emotional for me because I realized how good God is. He answered my simple honest prayer and gave me above and beyond all that I could ask or even think of.
I am truly thankful for the close friends that I’ve made here in New York and it’s like God expanded my heart to love even more without taking out the people that were already inside.
This baby shower is so clearly to me a demonstration of God’s faithfulness and I am so thankful for all these girls.